Red Baddage of Courage

After reading the "Red Baddage Courage," I felt like I could relate some what to how Henry was having mixed feeling about the war, and hoe he would react. He was treated differntly because he was lower rank.
I ws in the National Guard and was not treated very well by the higher ranked soliders. There was a lot of drinking on th off time among other things. I began to feel as if it was a joke as well. Six months after basic my unit got orders to be deployed to Iraq. That was one of the scariest days of my life. I had some of the same thought that Henry had, could I stand and fight or be a coward. During my physical before deployment they discovered I was pregnant. I was both happy and sad. Sad because I felt as though I failed my country and happy because I didn't know if I could be brave enough to go to war.